Scars: Victim or Victor?


When I saw the word Scars as the WordPress daily prompt, I thought “what scars do I have on my body”? I drew a blank. However, I remembered the scar on one of sister’s eyebrow. I remember her falling on a bike when she was around 3  or 4 years old, I even remember the blood pouring from the wound. Her scar has faded over the years but it is still there.
My mind then went back to my own sacrs. Yet it was not my physical but my emotional scars that came to mind. You see I remember my sister’s fall and I am now  cautious of  young children falling and getting hurt. I also do not like the sight of blood. Likewise my emotional scars run deep in my  unconscious and conscious mind.

For instances I know the consequences of experiencing rejection, such as loneliness, fear, hurt, anger, disconnection, low self-esteem, and even comprising myself to be accepted and loved and then despising myself  after comprising. As a result, I battle with perfectionism. Believing if I am perfect no one will reject me and I will not experience the pain of rejection again.

This thought process seems logical but  it is impossible because I am not perfect. No one is perfect. I am beginning to recognize and accept that I am deeply loved despite my imperfections.

I choose  to accept and love myself as I am today! I choose to accept that  I will face rejection but  I also choose  not to lose my sense of self in the process. I choose  to be authentic to help heal my emotional scars and be the treasure God created me to be.

What emotional scars require attention and healing in your life?

I Feel Alive

I feel alive are the inspiring words to a song called “God’s Great Dance Floor” by Chris Tomlin. This song truly represents not only what I am feeling but what I believe.

I feel alive because I am breaking free from the barriers of perfectionism. I feel alive because I am becoming comfortable with my imperfections. I feel alive because I do not have to fit someone’s else’s ideal and standard. I feel alive because God Loves me in ways I cannot image. I feel alive because I can share my challenges and inspire others. I feel alive because God’s  Love keeps we safe while I am jumping of a cliff and embracing my imperfections.

Today my boss text me and informed me an y team that we will have a paid day off next week. I was so excited that I posted this photo clip below. It was a first taste of embracing my imperfections and being really free because I did not look perfect by my standards. I was so full of joy and feeling alive that I did not care.

My question is do you feel truly alive? If you do that is amazing! If not then what is stopping you?

Love

Bianca